I sit in the tub with my only friend, the only one who wants to join me, my phone, my blog. Lately I've gained weight, not a lot, but enough for me to notice and my figure sags further every day. I'm unhappy and I'm in love. I'm in love with someone who has hardly no interest in me. She swears she loves me, that I'm the one, the most beautiful, yet can't find it in herself to hardly kiss me, so def not to make love to me or to appreciate my body. She'd never sit in the bath with me for fear I might try to get sexual. We haven't had sex in weeks and she still shows no interest. She's sick but she's never not sick so is there really just no time I turn her on? How can she look at me and not find me irresistable? Why doesn't she look at me and want to touch me? What's wrong with me? Why do I sit in the tub in tears, wishing, hoping, praying... When will she want me, physically?
